Using the Feelings of Failure as a Tool of Exploration

Flying home to Baltimore, in July, I had a sudden flash of fear and sadness ripple through my body. The feeling and thought was, “I am a failure.” Ten years since my husband died. Five years of living in Los Angeles and traveling to different parts of the world, why did I feel like a failure?

I can make a list of some of the things I have accomplished since my husband died ten years:

• Co-organized and sponsored Evolutionary Women retreats
• Mentored a group of 44 women to write stories in a book called Conscious Choices: An Evolutionary Woman’s Guide to Life.
• Ordained as a spiritual peace minister in the Beloved Community.
• Studied and completed two year long coaching programs.
• Completed the homeschooling of my youngest child who has now graduated from Santa Monica College and UCLA.
• Sold a house and my husband’s business and moved from Maryland to California.
• Survived an eviction
• Drove over 40,000 miles in the United States in a three year period.
• Traveled to several countries.
• Started an organization called Heal My Voice with ten published books of true stories by women, two of the books in Swedish.